Simplify
Last night, my best friend, who is in town for work, came to my house to spend the night and subsequently help me get my life in order. We sat down for our usual pow-wow and I began filling her in on how I have been spending my days. I gave her a day by day break down of my life and she gave me the straightest face I have ever seen.
Please see below:
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Right. That's all I'm saying. But her look was justified, I can definitely give her that.
To give you an idea of why she went Samuel L. on me, here is a sample of my life and activities:
Full Time Job
Delta Sigma Theta Sorority Incorporated (which more times than not is my sanity in the storm)
Hosting a bi-weekly Bible study at my house
Editing a Memoir
Ghost Writing a book
Putting the final touches on my own project *details coming very soon
Mentoring the Children
Singing on the Praise Team at church
Singing in the Choir at Church
Needless to say, my life is beyond packed. The other night I sat down on the couch and woke up to the sound of water spilling from the cup I had in my hand because I had literally passed out. You would think that this would be enough of an indicator that I had a problem, but I simply threw a towel on the floor, made my way to my bed and passed out there. The next day, I wore myself out again and kept it pushing. I have resorted to drinking massive amounts of Coffee, not for taste or pleasure, but for survival. I have now gotten to a point where my day cannot start until I have had my coffee. When did I become THAT girl?
I realize that I must actually be allergic or afraid of down time. I don’t know how to slow down, take a break; relax. Everything needs to be scheduled in, calculated, planned down to the tee because as you can see, I don’t have time to waste. Every single moment is accounted for and I have this incessant need to be DOING something. I love being busy, focused, it helps me be productive and handle my business. But my best friend had a great point, being busy is perfectly fine, but being overwhelmed and passing out on the moment I stop for more than five seconds is a red flag and I need to slow down. I think they have a word for it…what is that? Oh yeah, vacation.
The theme of the school year at my job is Simplicity and I am now conscious that I need to find this and practice this in my own life. I am definitely a woman of my word and I am committed to my current activities for the duration of the school year but I am going to practice what I preach and not take on any more commitments until at least January. I am going to get some things off of my plate and clear my space a bit. It is okay for me to back down and relax. I can do this. I can simplify. The first step is acknowledgement right?
Peace Y’all!
B
