Quiet Today
1. “Carrying this moment, which belonged to them, as far as it could go…” James Baldwin
2. Today is a quiet day
3. Words are swirling around in my head but cannot seem to make it down to my lips so I will allow them to float where they are, somewhere between my thoughts and my pen until they are ready to scream…
4. My phone is off today. Too much noise.
5. My house is clean… clear… fresh
5a. Still feel some clutter, full, almost bursting at the seams, but it’s getting there
6. Breathing space…created…necessary… easy
7. I feel the need to read through old words of mine, of his, of ours and collect inspiration… before I write…
8. Thinking
9. I believe that my moment is near. That sudden, blink and you’ll miss it moment is waiting just around the corner, ready to jump out and scare me, the way my brother used to do when we were kids…
9a. This time I’m ready for it
9b. Like I never was with my brother…
9c. Memories like that, always make me smile
10. Human
10a. I feel human today. Open. Raw. Vulnerable. Unable to escape these feelings, unwanting to escape them, so instead I open my arms to embrace them, tightly.
10b. They are mine after all. And no one can love them like I can. So I will.
10.c November. Retreat. Escape. Excited
11. Feeing stronger in my invisibility. Growing and stretching becoming more secure in who I am.
12. Searching for something real
12a. Valuable. Precious. Treasure
12b. Truth
12c. Desperate for Truth
13. I think I have become allergic to all things surface. I need depth.
14. Perhaps I am becoming a fish. Diving deeper into myself and discovering uncharted territory
15. Let me open my eyes and look around. Breathe in the water without fear of drowning, but sucking in refreshing and truth
16. “I. am. Not. Afraid.” Jill Scott
17. I [need] want someone to dive and swim with me
18. “Take me away, far from this place, far from the people…” Emily King
18a. Take me deep into a conversation where there is dialogue, not me talking, or me listening, but us engaging in each other’s thoughts and walking down the path of our ideas, exploring them as we shed our layers and become more naked and exposed, yet comfortable and secure with each transfer of words
19. A simple jactation of the things we have always been afraid to say
please.
20. Tired of talking
21. Tired of listening
22. Ready. Ready to engage
23. [engaged] no longer
24. My head is spinning…it kind of feels good…so I’ll go with it
25. Today is a quiet day. I need some space to let my mind flip itself over and rest.
[reset]
26. November. Rejuvenate. Escape. Excited
27. I’m not drinking coffee today. I’d rather remain here in this haze of quiet and
thought and prayer and warmth
28. Not sleepy. Not awake. Existing
29. Living is exhausting and sometimes you just need to exist, quietly, without
fanfare or parade
30. Just be
31. Just breathe
32. Today is a quiet day
33. Today I will just be… Quiet
Photo Credit : http://blog.nature.org/wp-content/uploads/2009/07/quiet-nature-photo-of-week.jpg
