Blame It On me
Blame It on Me... Alana Davis
Leaves change from green to red without notes in tune with time that surrounds
I think that's something that you said back a while when you first started coming around
You and I are from different worlds but that gave us more to share
You'd ask me where I wanted to be and I was happy with you just being there
Now I feel we've got some serious talking ahead and I don't want you to get me wrong
It's just we've become kind of a habit to each other and this can't keep going on
Blame it on Me
Over the past few months through no fault of you own
I've grown disenchanted and I've got to go it alone
Seems the natural thing to do 'cause you can't cling to me if I'm not gonna stick with you
Now take a look at what it's all coming down to
You act like I'm leaving you on the shelf but I don't know how else to say it
Life's a game and we all have to play it
So I've got to look out for myself
Blame it on me
All these changes coming on And I'm feeling it so strong
You know they've got to be real
It's hard to explain it baby if i can't tell you how i feel
I've been pushing it aside but i can't sacrifice my pride any longer
I thought it would subside
Something I could hide
But it's only getting stronger
Blame it on me
I listened to this song for the first time in a while last night and once again, it got me, like it always does. When we end a relationship with someone, whether it be a friendship or a romantic relationship, it is always difficult to acknowledge, why this thing must come to an end. Or even THAT it must come to an end. One very hard lesson i have been learning in the last couple of years is that not every one that comes in your life, is meant to stay in your life. Sometimes people come into our lives to be a distraction, to knock us off course when God is about to do something powerful in our lives. The arguement that I had the other night, sigh, really reaffirmed this concept for me. That particular relationship is poisonus, and always has been. Granted, there were some incredibly valuable lessons learned and some great creative works that stemmed from it, but ultimately, this person is detrimental to my progress and thus needs to be let go.
I was in church on Sunday and a part of the message was talking about friends in your life who are down with you when both of you are struggling, but as soon as you start progressing forward, and God starts pouring his blessings down onto you, then jealousy, or whatever, comes in and these people you onced leaned on are no where to be found. Poisonus relationships.
Every once in a while, God will start weeding people out of my life. Or rather I should say, God will totally isolate me from everyone and everything and get me to a place where He is the only voice I can hear. Pretty soon, I begin to lean less on people and more on Him. I guess that is the point right. We should never put men before God. Wait... I'm way off topic... LOL!. Sorry, I digress...
In the song, Alana says....Over the past few months through no fault of you own I've grown disenchanted and I've got to go it alone Seems the natural thing to do 'cause you can't cling to me if I'm not gonna stick with you...
Bottom line is that I still have a lot to learn. A long way to go. But one thing I have learned to do, is look at each situation as a lesson. Every thing has some sort of POSITIVE aspect that can be drawn from it and it is up to you or me to figure out what it is. Every hurt can turn into a poem, every smile can turn into a song, Everyone who pisses me off WILL be in the next book... just kidding LOL! but you get what i'm saying. Life really is a beautiful struggle, if you make it that way. Take everything you can from it and also know that sometimes, you have to put the blame on yourself, know that its okay not to have that person in your life and make the necessary moves. Think of it as making room for the next lesson to come in and leave its mark
