5am thoughts
The time is 5 am. Why I am up at 5 am, sitting on my couch in complete darkness typing this blog is beyond me. It must be because I am on vacation and I know I can go back to sleep and not have to be up in two hours for work. I definitely am a gigantic fan of spring break. I woke up about 45 minutes ago and lay in my bed thinking about my interview. Last night I was at rehearsal for the praise and worship team and my pastor came in and we talked for a minute about the interview. He told me that I was going to do an excellent job and as soon as he said that I felt good. I have been low key stressing about this interview. It’s a really surreal feeling thinking about doing a television interview. Who am I that I am going to sitting down in front of a camera discussing this book on a major television network? This is crazy! I am really excited though. God is moving with this book and everything is happening so fast. Not so fast that I can’t enjoy it, but fast enough for me and my ADD self to stay focused. LOL!
I have been going through a lot of personal transitions in my life, some good, some bad, some hurtful, but every last one of them, designed to force me to grow in some way. I have a baby idea for another book. I want to incorporate all of the emotions and tears I felt in just the last few months and create a dialogue on how to be a human. It’s okay to feel what we feel, to think how we think, to want what we want. We don’t have to let people run over us, or discount how we feel. We don’t have to be afraid to shine because we don’t know how people will react, who cares? I have learned to surround myself with people who are just as productive and focused and accomplished as I am. The whole birds of a feather theory. People who are grinding just as hard as I am don’t have time to sit back and worry about what I’m doing. They celebrate, participate, and then get back to what they were doing. That’s what it’s about. But for a long time, I would swallow back how I felt about something and force myself to go with the flow. But now, as my milestone birthday approaches, I feel that light bulb flickering and I see now that I don’t have to hide how I feel. I can express it and do what I need to do. That is a beautiful thing. So, I’m still playing with the idea for now, developing characters and all that good stuff, but for now I am enjoying promoting U.G.L.Y. and I am very excited about this interview! Pray for me!!
Peace Y’all,
B
